So, they perform all those rituals and keep all those festivals and adhere to what seems good to them and immerse themselves in a world of beauty & goodness but the truth of the matter is that when it comes to the core of Your written words as in the famous Sermon on the Mount in Matthew 5-7 & Luke 6 & many other chapters in Your written words those words are totally out of the scope of human capability to observe & keep them!
Thus, instead of accepting such incapability and turning to You my Father we just frame & quote & study & dissect those words with much diligence then go on doing what we think is best to do to keep and do those words never for one minute realizing that we are not fit to keep and do those words by our own power of thinking and emotional hype!
Thus, Your commandment not to lean in our own understanding, to become like little children and not to call anyone ‘teacher’ or ‘father’ or ‘leader’ are totally ignored and replaced by our own ideas & concepts of what it all means!
Can your people not see that we are programmed by the religious & secular systems in this world to do exactly the opposite of Your commandments?
Ah! But Your people is appalled to give up such beauty & goodness! It feels so good! It’s such pleasure to hear and to see the glitter of beautiful words of comfort & encouragement & sympathy!
Am I deranged to suggest that such beauty is an abomination unto You my Father?
Hum! Think again! Am I or are you the deranged one? Go over the words from the lips of our Messiah & check yourself against those words before you analyze this donkey that I am!
I love you! Yes I love you with the love of my Yah in spite of your cruelty to the one human being most concerned with your eternal destiny! And yes I miss you but I will not bow down to your style of living opposite to the commandments from our Maker no matter how enticing such style of living it is!
Thursday, April 11, 2013 at 12:10 am
I’m going back to sleep. It’s 1:41 am and I’m awake but in much pain. I will go back to sleep. It’s now 4:36 am and I hope that now I can stay awake and continue the work that You have assigned unto me.