Talking about fears, the fear of being alone nearly destroyed me altogether! Such fear was in psychological terms, a major and destructive PHOBIA! I feared and resented to be alone and I spent my life like a puppy dog begging for the crumbs of fellowship.
Therefore, I have a mental record of the size of the biggest book you can imagine! Hum! There was nothing wrong with me! I never was a mental case, neither I am at the present time nor will I ever be in the future! Society was my problem! The innate urge in all human beings to seek and even die for that coveted commodity of belonging in a social group of some kind!
So, that is the problem, now, what is the solution and how did I find the solution to my life’s dilemma?
Let me make it clear, I did not find the solution to such enormous problem, but, the solution came to me, the solution came into my spirit, into the core of my being and I have never been the same again! What am I talking about?
I am talking about something supernatural. I am talking about something that the human mind cannot comprehend. And because man cannot comprehend this solution, man is suffering the consequences of his ignorance. Just as simple as that!
Father, help me! I am totally depressed! Just to think of the ignorance and arrogance of man, depresses me to the core! And I need Your help to overcome this momentary hurl!
It’s 11:55am and I have nothing but words written on this pages and not a real, tangible solution that I can see or feel. Must I always be cursed with this awful need to hear from somebody? What about Your martyrs? What about Your prophets? What about all Your servants who have been thrown into solitary confinement for years?…
Father, I want the strength and endurance that You gave to them. Am I being presumptuous and insolent with such want? For I have not nearly paid the price that they had to pay. Who am I who dares to talk to You like this? Have mercy on me, my Father and show me the way out of this hold of misery; for You and You alone are my Deliverer and my Healer and my Keeper!
My Master’s Response …
“My child, lift up your eyes to Me! I am your shield. Neither Israel nor any other evil being can harm you. Soon, all those who exalt themselves with titles and authorities that I have not given to them, shall be knock down for good!
