Father, it’s 11:35am on this Wednesday, September 09, 2009 and so far, apparently, nothing has happened, for nobody has called or emailed or knocked on my door. Yet, I remained composed and at peace enjoying myself in Your Presence alone… how amazing this experience is to me! And for how long have I desired for this state of peaceful and joyful stability in my life? Practically all of my life!
Oh my Father! It’s such wonderful thing to me to experience this peace and joy and contentment without the interference of any human contact. It used to be a time when I lived in a continuous state of panic and emotional craving for human comfort. And I would wear out my friends with my lengthy phone calls and talkative behavior.
How different is this life that I am now living in Your Presence and under Your care and protection alone! Oh, yes! I still talk and go over board sometimes. But, it is not at all like it used to be! Because, when I talk now, it is all under Your control.
And yes, I annoy many people with my ‘much talking’. But, You open and shut my mouth nowadays. And weather people get elated and delighted or annoyed and aggravated with me, it doesn’t matter anymore. Your approval and getting alone with You to laugh or cry about these matters is all that counts!
Oh what a wonderful state of being! You have truly pulled me out of this world! And to think that each one of Your children have the same opportunity every day of their lives and every day of their lives they miss such magnificent opportunity…Oh how it must break Your heart! How long shall this state of affairs continue my Father? And would You rescue all of Your children? I know that in due time You will show me and give me peace in this matter.
Father, it’s 5:12pm on Wednesday, September 09, 2009, in just 3 weeks it shall be Sukkoth and You have not given me the slightest indication on what to do. I know that You are sick and tired of all our celebrations and I have given that message to Your people but, now I find myself in a quandary again.
My Father, as I see the day approaching I am trembling because of all the excitement and zeal going on in all circles. What would You have me do? Do You want me to stay put in this place and let the whole commotion pass without me getting involved with it? Must I remain silent for the time being until You release me to talk or until You send me someone to talk to?