The pain has escalated.
I do not know whether quit the sugar again or?
What to quit? What to eat?
The chocolates seemed to be helping me, but!
No chocolates in 3 days.
Take the uncertainty of all happenings?
It all boils down to inevitable stress and worry even when living in Your Presence.
Why not? The fool worries not.
The fool lives on their own made world of work, fun, and games.
Ignorance of You and Your ways is the fools’ trade mark.
Am I a fool?
Not anymore by Your grace and favor and design for my life’s existence.
Where To Go From Here My Master? …
Date and time at this moment of my wondering? Sunday, March 21, 2021 at 7:25 am. Indeed! You know all about my wonderings and my wanderings. So, the seven in the hour meaning?
The Number Seven – Completeness and Rest. You do marvelous things in the earth with this number.
Yes! You do marvelous things in the earth with this number.
And so You are doing in my own earth with all my wonderings and wanderings.
It is true, You have set me up in this place for good it seems to me.
Set up in the way that I no longer wander from one place to another.
No more wanderings! No more tottering my junk all over tarnation!
What a blessing such revelation!
But Then? There Comes The Blasted Wonderings In My Mind! …
My hope? You shall do a marvelous thing with the wonderings of my mind as well. That be swell! The wondering troubling my mind now? The times of Noah while You shed tears to see Your cherished children walking away.
- The last post ‘This Year 2021? Implanted Beauty Surfacing …’ has been ignored for the most.
- And I wonder!
- Have all latest post perhaps ignored as well?
- Since I installed AVG the responses from the same people have ended.
- Now there are only one or two new comers.
- I am losing my desire to write, but!
- Write it all down I must!
- That is Your command for despite my wonderings.
- At 10:04 am bed. I tried the bed to no avail.
- Pain. Uncertainty.
- No work. No money. Illnesses.
- Lack of understanding from the people that could help.
- Total refusal to bend their staunch self-righteous ways.
- No compassion.
- Just indiscriminately pointing fingers.
- So tired of explaining.
- So tired of hearing the cruel remarks about people they don’t know.
- I got up. Sat under the sun to cry for a while.
- I came back in feeling better.
- I headed for Photoshop to work on ‘In His Hands He got the whole World in His Hands …’
And That Is The Way It Is. You Got The Whole World In Your Hands …
It is now Sunday, March 21, 2021 at 3:49 pm. Such fact comforts me. You know my predicament with my bank account and with my address in the USA. You know the huge possibility of needing to change both.
- You know that possibility has come to mind in the last few days.
- And that is what I am deeply troubled about besides all that is going on.
- Last night? Dream:
- I dreamed about a herd of huge angry bulls were coming to me.
- But someone ushered me into a door opening another door for the herd to go in.
- I sat in that room for a bit.
- But then I wanted to peep into the room with the herd of bulls.
- I climb to a high window in the room and?
- The bulls had all gone into the ocean.
- The door for the bulls to go in was the door to the ocean!
What Are You Showing Me In That Dream my Master? …
At 4:55 pm on Sunday, March 21, 2021 I noticed there were 1 four and 2 fives at that exact moment it came to me to record Your answer. The Number Four – Creation and the World is overwhelmingly seen in the material creation and the expression of God’s purpose in the world or on the earth.
- The Number Five – Grace and Preparation.
- The next time I noticed the date I had 5:55 pm.
- Wow! Emphasis on Grace and Preparation.
- It came to me to revise the illustration.
- Slept on and off until around 1:30 am on Sunday, March 21, 2021.
- Then I tried to sleep some more but I just could not get comfortable to fall asleep again.
A Prayer For Your Help …
Sometime after much reflection on all happenings on this day I lifted my voice to pray. O my Master, You are the only One able to resolve all these disturbing matters assailing us at present time.
- I thank You for all my loved ones You have given to me.
- Forgive me for all my suspicious about them.
- Only You can deliver me from such suspicions.
- As per Your revelation it all got to do with my touchy feelings of my carnal nature.
- Deliver me from my own carnal nature.
- I have no desire to insist on my feelings and thoughts on anything.
- Be it all against the norm for other human beings in the society of mankind.
- Bless them to the max for their kindness to me.
- Open their eyes to forgive my offenses to them as I forgive them for their offenses to me.
- Thank You for inspiring this prayer to You.
- I already sense the impact of Your positive response.
- All things are in order now.
- Even so? You show me what to do when something goes out of order.
- Photoshop crashed again.
- Will restart computer to start fresh on Monday, March 22, 2021 at 4:40 am.
- I am looking forward to a good day as You continue to sustain me come sun or rain.
- I will now continue to illustrate the signs of the end times.
Signs Of End Times …?
Much reflection on the matter. It is now Monday, March 22, 2021 at 2:13 pm. Company came. Much goodies to enjoy. My little friend brought me food. Full day. Thank You.
- Time for bed on Monday, March 22, 2021 at 7:49 pm.
- Up on Tuesday, March 23, 2021 at 1:27 am but not feeling good.
- Up on Tuesday, March 23, 2021 at 5:45 am.
- It is now Tuesday, March 23, 2021 at 3:13 pm.
What Have I Been Doing Since I Woke Up This Morning? …
Master? So much You are revealing fresh to me mainly for my own benefit. Our situation here has not improved. The money situation is a problem. Unless You intervene? Things are not going to change, but!
- I am relying on Your written words or the Scriptures.
The Scriptures Or Written Words Are Not Words To Study …
That is the one thing You are revealing on these days of the end. Indeed! The Scriptures are not for us to study but they are written to obey and do what they say to do.
- They are written for examples, warnings and admonitions for us not to desire or crave or covet or lust after evil and carnal things as the people did in the wilderness.
- That is what is written. No interpretation. No studying the matter.
- In vain I studied and interpreted never examining my own chasing after carnal things.
- Thank You my Master for confronting and setting me free from my carnal doings.
Master? Help Me Out Of This Boredom …?
I am hurting and discouraged with all that goes on and the lack of money. I am heading for bed. Hope for Your help while I sleep. Tuesday, March 23, 2021 at 8:03 pm.
- Up and down. Not able to get comfortable to fall asleep.
- You are right here with me
- You are feeling what I am feeling or? Is it the other way around, my Master?
- I know of so many with the same maladies that I am suffering.
- And when one member of Your body suffers? The whole body suffers.
- This life in the flesh of us is described in Ecclesiastes, but!
- After Ecclesiastes comes the beauty of the Song of Solomon.
- I am beginning to understand now Your reasoning for all that it is written.
- Studying and memorizing and repeating those words is not of much help until You bring to life those words within our hearts.
- You have had me record such fact over and over mainly for my own benefit. But!
- As You have me record and publish the fact about Your written words You are reaching the rest of Your children You send my way.
- Yes, I do get bored writing the same matter over and over, but!
- Thank You for giving me the incentive to obey You no matter how I feel or think.
- You had me quote Ecclesiastes lately but now on waking up I heard Your precious call in the Song of Solomon.
Song of Solomon 2:4 AMPC+