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Unto You I Bring All My Frustrations …?
- Master? It is now Friday, April 2, 2021 at 9:29 pm.
- You know how I spent the day.
- I need to pickup the thread, but I am tired.
- Besides, I cannot connect to work.
- Heading for bed.
- Hope You bless me with sleep.
- Saturday, April 3, 2021 at 12:54 am.
- Connection no good. Back to sleep.
- I did not go back to sleep.
- I have not received my stimulus check.
- Have been trying to find out why to no avail.
- It is now Saturday, April 3, 2021 at 2:30 am.
Master? Help! Unless You Intervene …?
I cannot stop my fear that I might not get that money. I cannot stop hoping for it to materialize. I need You. You are my Provider. You have Your good reason for the delay. I wait on You to show me that reason if You so deem to do.
- In the meantime?
- I pray for sleep.
- I pray to wake up refresh and ready to continue the task You have assigned to me, and?
- I pray to forget about the extra money.
- You know the money available now is not enough to cover my expenses.
- But You command me to be satisfied with what You provide.
- So? That is what I am praying for.
- I am praying to give me the power to quit looking for more than You provide for me.
- Thank You.
No Use For Retaliation …?
Sure! O my Master! The constant lack of change and broken promises hurt and make me angry, but! You command me not to return evil for evil; to bless those who hurt me.
- It is now Saturday, April 3, 2021 at 9:16 am.
- Ahmad promised to come early this morning, but he is not here yet.
- Not only that but he was to get my supplies today but now he tells me he will get those tomorrow.
- I had it my Master! You know it.
- Thank You.
Wow! Your Instructions Came Right Out Of My Own Mouth …?
What a relief! So? That is the reason why You have caused the delay for that check. I read earlier that a new round of checks will be in the bank of this weekend. I expect rather? I sense You will release that money today or tomorrow for sure.
Ahmad Came And Went. All Turned Out The Best …?
He came carrying a bag asking me to look at his eyes. He started out complaining about his eyes. I responded, “It is not just your eyes! It’s your mind and your head! You get the biggest pleasure in making me angry, but it is not going to work anymore!”
- Ha! His face lit up with smile!
- From there on we engaged in one of the best exchanges we ever had.
- All about the reason for the stimulus check delay.
- Amazing! We had planned to spend that money on the AC plus a couple of other things I had wanted.
- Just to install the AC would have taken most of the money and then what?
- Back to agonize how to make it for the rest of the month!
- Repeat! Repeat! Repeat now halted!
- He said, “I’ll install the AC for you!”
- I said, “NO! You need to get the necessary tools to fix this apartment yourself because we have wasted a lot of money on workers that have done a lousy job and the apartment still not fixed! That will not cost too much; the rest of that money we need to save it to make it for the rest of this Corona virus crisis that we are going through! From here on if I must do without all those things that I think I need including especial food I will do without before I let you scrounge for money to satisfy my demands. That is the way it HAS to be. The change begins with me!”
Number 7 Meaning Completeness And Rest. Indeed! …?
Amazing! Finally! You are never late nor tardy. Once You delivered me from my obsession with spending money that I do not have? Presto! My check shall deposited next Wednesday the 7th. You certainly do marvelous things with the 7 number.
- It is now Sunday, April 4, 2021 at 2:39 am.
- Wednesday, April 7, 2021 at 12 am is coming 4 days
- Wednesday: the 4th day of the week.
- April: the 4th month of the year.
- Number 7: You do wonders all over the earth with number 7.
- Sunday, April 4, 2021 at 2:54 am. Bed?
Well? O My Master! You Are So Good To Me …?
From day first of this 4th month of 2021, You have amazed me with such special blessings. But yesterday? The best! Victory over my financial mishandling! And?
Today? Victory Over The Enemy’s Physical Attempt To Harm Me …?
No kidding! From the moment I woke up until I laid down to sleep? The enemy harassed me big time. First thing? I burned my breakfast and broke another favorite coffee mug of mine. The worst?
- I let what I thought to be a boy to come in my roof to retrieve the kite I saw hanging by the rail.
- What I thought to be a boy turned out to be an evil girl.
- This girl insisted that I let her climb up the roof above my apartment.
- I refused. She kept insisting. I made her leave but she grabbed my door handle refusing to leave.
- The whole incident wound up on that girl scratching my right hand and breaking my skin.
- That throwed me into fear!
- But I trusted such fear under Your feet before I went to sleep.
Ha! Your Response? A Warning To Ahmad That Landed On His Within For Good …?
It is now Monday, April 5, 2021 at 8:55 am. Ha! I see the number 8 followed by the 5 twice. Amazing how You are putting all incidents in place from the past up to yesterday.
Master? I Can Feel My Insides Turning, Why? …
I don’t know why but I don’t have to know. You know. I wait on You. For sure You will show me the why of all happenings as You see fit to do.
- I was wrong thinking that Yazeed had connected with You.
My Earnest Supplication O My Master! …?
Forgive our foolishness and set our minds on Your will not in our minds. We continue to make fun of all the warnings You send our via the good and bad that comes our way.
- I was wrong thinking You had reached Ahmad’s inner man.
- His actions today proved me wrong.
- Help me O my Master help me!
- How can I overcome the nasty blow of today?
- Unless You intervene there is no hope for us.
- Deliver us from our own selves.
- Deliver us from bragging or boasting or talking or writing about oneself or something related to oneself in a proud or self-admiring way.
- That is what we do naturally.
- But only You can set us strait.
- No self-induced method or routine can deliver us.
- You alone are able and willing to deliver and empower us to abide in You.
- Have mercy my Master and help us quit our usual ways.
- But I know that is what You are doing.
How Long, O Master? …
Psalms 13:1-6 AMPC+
To the Chief Musician. A Psalm of David. HOW LONG will You forget me, O Master? Forever? How long will You hide Your face from me?