We mouth off all kinds of apologies not because we are truly sorry for our lapses—no, we do it only to exonerate ourselves! Such is the cause of all broken relationships and more! Make no mistake about it!
From My Presence in My beloved Thia’s journal—A dialog between thia/Basilia and Master Yahuwah/ Yahushua!
Friday, January 23, 2015 at 7:23 pm
Father, the 7th day of rest has arrived at sundown! It is only fitting that I rest from this heaviness in my being and cast it to You for You care for me!
O my Father, You know how we human beings can mouth off all kinds of apologies not because we are truly sorry for our lapses, no, only to exonerate ourselves!
How devious, arrogant and callous can we be? There is no telling, but, until we come to terms with the reality of our ingrained wickedness, we shall remain devious, arrogant and callous!
And the result of our wickedness shall deteriorate our relationships until they completely break under the stress of our ingrained wickedness!
Okay! It’s time for me to rest and let Father take care of all the heavy matters weighing me down—sleep, fail me not!
Saturday, January 24, 2015 at 12:11 am
What is happening to me, my Father? This pain & hurt is totally out of control! What is happening to me? WHAT is happening to me? I have nothing to look forward to on these earthly grounds—nothing! Nothing at all!
Father, I know that You have a reason for my moment of excruciating pain in my soul more so than in my body! And I know that You never give me any more than what I can take!
Thus, I wait on You to act on behalf of all concerned! Whatever long I must wait is up to You! Here I am ready & willing to abide by Your will no matter what comes my way!
It’s now 2:51 am. O my Father, You know all about what I am going through and I am just beginning to realize it myself! Thus the tears keep flowing with even more intensity!
What is it that I am and have been going through for the last year or so? I have been reliving the history of past broken relationships—the memory of my past divorce! Divorce is the most painful happening in any woman’s life no matter how tough that woman can be!
It is true, we women, by nature call upon ourselves what we get from the male element because of what happened way at the beginning of time.
From the beginning we were created to complete the man. The woman was created from the man, thus man ought to love & cherish the woman as their own selves.
Even so, everything was twisted because of that short sentence pronounced about the woman, mainly: “… the woman saw that the tree was good for…”
Thus, from the beginning, man has been blaming the woman for all of his lapses and mouthing off apologies to exonerate himself!
In turn we, woman were relegated to the control of man, as it’s written, “I will greatly multiply your grief and your suffering in pregnancy and the pangs of childbearing; with spasms of distress you will bring forth children. Yet your desire and craving will be for your husband, and he will rule over you.”
There you have the origin of the present predicament for us women in general! For only a few women are blessed to be under the loving control of men!
For the most the control of men over women is far from ‘loving control’! Rather, with few exceptions, men’s control over woman is harsh and cruel!
And the whole spectrum of the society of mankind is a mix of extremes—from utter corruption to the pinnacle of righteousness & goodness!
And the whole spectrum of humanitarian organizations to aid the down and out victims of the corruption of mankind resulting in broken relationships come into play, actually, to no avail. Why?
Because, these humanitarian aids depend on the human mind & heart and herald to the world a wrong concept of what the Almighty Creator of our beings is all about!
But why a broken relationship or a divorce from a man so affects most women? Because of that pronounced judgment: “Yet your desire and craving will be for your husband, and he will rule over you.”
Go ahead woman, turn your rage against the Creator of our beings! Join the disgusting group of females protestors!
But remember, until we quit that ‘poor me!” chanting and we come to terms with the reality of our ingrained wickedness, we shall remain devious, arrogant and callous as well as exonerating ourselves and blaming whoever even our Creator!
The truth of the matter is that until we, women as well as men, take responsibility for our part in any relationship we shall remain devious, arrogant and callous and putting the blame for our lapses on somebody else but exonerating ourselves from all wrong doing!
Furthermore, against the common belief that we are to forget our sinful past, the truth of the matter is that even when one takes responsibility for one’s lapses in the sight of the Almighty Creator of our beings, and, our lapses are forgiven and can no longer affect us in a destructive way, even so, those lapses are stored in our minds as memories not to be forgotten rather to be remembered as a lesson learned to warn others about the wiles of our carnal natures!
Thus, for the last year or so I have been reliving the history of past broken relationships—the memory of my past divorce! Divorce is the most painful happening in any woman’s life no matter how tough that woman can be!
And now, at this very moment, at 6:07 am of this blessed 7th day of rest, Saturday, January 24, 2015, my tears have ceased! The relived agony of my past divorce has ended at this very moment!
FATHER! You have accomplished Your will to put me through such agony! In addition, You are clearly demonstrating Your wisdom in all my doings and happenings at the present time of my journey by Your side on this valley of death that I must travel along the rest of Your children! Ha! Ha! HalleluYah!
His love in my heart for all, thia/Basilia