From My Presence in My beloved Thia’s journal—A dialog between thia/Basilia and Master Yahuwah/ Yahushua!
Monday, February 02, 2015 at 7:34 am
Well the weekend is over but that does not matter to me—I write 24/7 so I am on time, regardless!
Thus here is my new post that is actually an excerpt of the entry of the past couple of days. I have been wondering how to present such long writing to the readers in Blogging 101. Today I got my answer with the writing of a new post referring to DEPTH.
All troubled relationships stem from lack of understanding of the depth of our beings among individual members of each relationship….
Saturday, January 31, 2015 at 11:41 pm
Father, I am realizing now that my children do not know what they have and are doing to me, perhaps anger & hurt & fear has blinded them and caused them to retaliate with vengeance!
What this retaliation entails? They have practically vanished me from their existence and express so in their public life, for in their public life hardly any mention of this mother of theirs is made.
It is for me such a painful experience to hit the Facebook button and find their name and automatically start searching what my children are up to, only to find a very happy life among all their numerous friends & relatives minus the least mention that they have a mother!
I know it is none productive to even hint these things to them, for just the slightest hint throws them into a fit of anger and hate, throwing the most awful ‘you are selfish’ ‘quit your self-pity’ ‘you are insane’ ‘you are not going to put a guilt trip on me!’ ‘you are not a mother!’ ‘you have not been there for me!’ ….on and on for years such goes on!
And me? I push and push and push! Defending myself! Trying to explain! Sarcasm, humor, anger? Simply trying to make sense of it all!
Until I quit trying and started trusting You, O my Father! And O my Father, You have given me the strength to look at things objectively and accept responsibility for my part in this awful turmoil in our midst along with the fact that I have sinned, against You only have I sinned! Continue reading “DEPTH—The Depth Of My Faith ….”